Surreal Family Life Journal

Top blogs i love

2010-08-23T21:16:00.000-07:00

I was asked who my fav blogs are and i started listing them all off to the shock of my family, when they finaly put a hand over my mouth and told me to shut up. Just your top fav 1 i was told, thats all we want. Um i don’t have a top fav i like so many, cant i keep them all. Nope was their reply, you have to chose one or at lest narrow it to 10. So i thought long and hard and then it came to me, i am going to write down 10 questions that i will ask my fav bloggers and the ones who take the time to answer me back will narrow down the list a little.

So i sent them all this letter,

I want to ask my fav bloggers a few questions so I can narrow down who is my top 10 fav because I was told by my family that I will never be able to narrow it down to 20 let alone 10 so I want to prove them wrong. That’s why I am asking all my fav 30 blogs to answer my questions and hoping and praying you will agree because you think I am so sweet and lovable and you want me to win my bet, or at least you pity me enough to do this and it counts as your good deeded for the week so you can be all I’m great cause I help this weird little blogger prove her family wrong.

Great, so at this point I am hoping you have agreed to answer my questions, so I am going to sit down on my cool green leather couch in my funky pink and blue room, and ask you a few starter questions to make you comfortable, because I was told that’s what real interviewers do.

Do you like my couch? I like the fact that its green leather it looks like a lime right?

What’s your fav drink?

Okay pretend it appeared in front of you delivered by a funky robot with an afro wig who can brake dance. I have this whole neon color thing going on in my just for fun interview room because anything is possible with the power of your mind, or that’s what my mother told me growing up but I have yet to win that lottery yet. I forgot where I was going with this but I think we can get down to the main questions now.

These are the questions

1. Why blogging? What got you started?

2. Do you think that dushbagery is a good comeback or at least fun to shout out randomly from a moving viecial at strangers?

3. What is your favourite blog and why?

4. Why do you think you should be my fav blog?

5. Can i stalk you on twitter?

6. What is your favourite thing to pass the time?

7. If you had to choose between face book and twitter to post your last message to the world before you disappeared into the abyss what would it be?

8. Have you ever eaten deep fried pickles? They taste so good right.

9. Do you think aren’t is a real word, because Microsoft word recognizes it but Google does not?

10. What would the best question for me to ask you that you would never guess that I would ask you that would get you to reveal a secret about yourself? (Okay now answer the question as though I asked you it? )

Thanks for answering my questions, I really appreciate it.

Mistress pink

Well we will see who answers.

Catch up Time

2010-08-21T15:36:00.000-07:00

So what have I been doing? Where have I been?

I moved again.... lol ya I Know I’m always moving. I have moved 20 times in the last 2 and half years. But this is it, I found it my home.

I moved here 3 months ago, it’s a big 5 bedroom home 2 levels, big shared back yard, front yard and deck. I have my own office (I am so excited about that its blue my fav color and I am in the process of building a cork board wall for 1 side. will post pics and tell you about my office later.) I have a giant bedroom, my bathroom is covered in frogs and frog stuff and I will be painting it blue or green.

We have hard wood flooring a nice kitchen that has a window lined up with the Old Russian sibling’s next door window, so I look up and see the nice lady doing her dishes while I am doing mine. We have a weird relationship where we both smile and wave at each other, because we are always both in the kitchen. I have a dining room and a table no chairs because I never eat at it and all the random stuff ends up there like, a flower pot half full of soil , a completed 3d puzzle of a general store, a vase full of dried out flowers and a dog toy.

My living room and dining room are joined together and one wall of my house is big ceiling to floor windows/ glass doors that open out onto the little deck. (Sad part is this is the front of my house and I live on a main road in a big city, everyone can look in because I have yet to find curtains that fit.)

There are 3 rooms upstairs , my office my room, and the master room which I so loving gave to my brother when I realized it meant I did not have to share a bathroom with him and I got the big main bathroom to myself and could overload it with my frogs (gods I love frogs............ minus Pac man frogs cause they can eat people......... really I was going to buy when but then I watched it jump over to the handler and bit it, in the pet shop it was freaky and I also learned it eats rabbits for its food every week )

downstairs has 2 rooms, a laundry room , a storage room and a big room the size of the dining room and living room combined. this is what we like to call the man’s area , it has a punching bag, big speakers and cd player , dart board and one of the little rooms has a poker table , fuse ball table and a couch (donated by me) along with tons of swards my bro collects.

Last month my bros girlfriend of 8 months moved in, it’s been interesting to say the least, we have bumped heads a little.

She sleeps tell 11:30 - 12:00 pm, I get up 9:30 latest. so she complains I wake her up all the time, then comes in to my room at 8 am on my day off and wakes me up to go to the mall with her where I end up holding her shopping bags because she keeps putting them down all over the mall and forgetting where she left them.

She is a real girly girl, takes a min of 5 hrs to get ready for something and that’s when she is going fast. She uses all my makeup and has started keeping it in her purse so I have to ask her to use my own makeup. She took my makeup to a party and left it there and never told me until it was too late for me to get mad because she could not get it now until the next party 3 weeks later. When she does her makeup she gets eyeliner everywhere, I have witness to this one, no one can guess how she does it, and the bathtub, the counters, the sink, the floor and some of the walls and the door all have stains from eyeliner that she has gotten on them.

She borrowed my jewellery (a 6 hundred dollar necklace that was give to me as a daughter pride necklace for my 18 birthday) and wore it to a party, then told me when she got home I thought you would not mind.

oh did I mention she is on medical leave for a mental break down ( due to an accident that happened..... more on that later) , does not clean or do anything but cook instant food, sleep and do her makeup , oh and hang out with j (more on her later... j I mean)

And yet no matter how much these things bug me and trust me they bug me. I still got to say I like her , she loves my brother, she loves animals , we have simaler taste in music, and when I thought I was watching her die in the crash with my brother and my little cuz , I truly was freaked out for her . If anyone ever hurt her I would treat it as though they had hurt a member of my family, because that’s how much she has made an impact over the last 3 months on my life. She is sweet and little.... okay pretty childish and when she says I love being a part of your family I now she means it.

j - short version , brothers best friend (c ) ex , she and c use to rent the basement of said house to little bro, their parents lived next door , parents decided to move to bc , so j and c took over next door (the house is a duplex but a big ass one) and little bro and I took over this one. j likes to think she can boss people around and control people so when it donned on her that she would not be able to control the house because she does not live here she freaked and started coming over all the time everyday and would just walk in, one day I came out of my bedroom to find her taking out all the light bulbs in the house, when asked what she was doing she claimed they were all hers and she wanted them back, I kicked her out and locked the door. She stopped coming over. She made friends with k (bros girlfriend) and now sees it as a free pass to walk into the house and treat me like crap. I put a stop to that to. She literally would walk into the house without knocking and walk past me or lean over me to pet the dog give her kisses and baby talk her, then the cat and then walk around the house. so now she just comes over when k lets her into the house and they run downstairs to go into hiding for a few hours because bro said he is not a fan of j and she does not need to be around or doing shit like that after I told j I would call the cops the next time she walked in to the house without one of us.

Overly dramatic................. Maybe a little but it got my point across.

The accident

So Calgary stampede, such a great fun place right. Had my cuz from Toronto come down to visit just for the stampede? Bought everyone those 50 dollar mass ride bracelets and away we go. First dam ride we go on is the scorpion, which crashed, I watched people get crushed and thought it was my family members. No one died. A lot of people were hurt. Stampede says they are not to blame, there are lawsuits involved, I was put on panic meds and sleeping meds.

Ya I’ll post a few of the links I have about it , if I posted all the links and updates it would take a few hours you can search it yourself if you want more info but that’s all I want to say for now.

http://news.sympatico.ctv.ca/home/10_injured_in_ride_accident_at_calgary_stampede/98951cf4

http://www.winnipegfreepress.com/canada/breakingnews/at-least-five-injured-in-calgary-stampede-ride-mishap-two-in-hospital-98653364.html?commentConfirmed=y#comments
http://www.calgaryherald.com/news/injured%20after%20Stampede%20ride%20breaks/3288886/story.html
http://www.globaltvcalgary.com/entertainment/Girl+remains+hospital+Stampede+probes+midway+accident/3291950/story.html

I think that’s it, oh ya I am addicted to cafe world, disco empire, bar society and happy aquarium on face book. I have started scrapbooking like mad and I took a wild random trip to west Ed mall where I dressed like a saloon girl with sasa and acted like a fool in front of tons of people on a pirate ship in the lagoon in the middle of the mall all in the name of good scrap booking photos.

So you did not miss much, or maybe alot

happy hoildays , happy new year

2010-01-14T08:40:00.000-08:00

i am running around like a chicken with my head cut off , oh and i am moving ,..........yes again. as i keep telling my parents , i have a sickness they think i never stop moving and i am really bad at moving but i love the hole idea behind it and the first 3 days after moving. i will tell you all about that later right now , i leave you with a get to know me thingy.

What grade is the last person who texted you in?
none

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
orange juice

Do you know anyone who is pregnant right now?
yes ,

Have you ever ridden a skateboard?
yeah , couple of times but didn't work!

Do you straighten your hair?
yes i do when i have 6 hours to spare

What were you doing at 8:00 am?
today ? sleeping

How many times have you dyed your hair?
to many to count , i love all the colors

You can get a puppy or a new car. Which do you choose?
new puppy

Does the number 18 have any significance to you?
nope

Did you have any unread text messages when you woke up today?
no i woke up to the stupid text when it went off at 12:52 am

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
more time

Do you hate it when people smoke around you?
yes and no , if they give me space its no , when they do it in a car with the windows rolled up and me locked inside then yes

Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
ya

Have you ever thrown a cell phone in anger?
yes and it has not broken

Are you one of those people who like to sleep in on the weekends?
yupe , if i can but i work most weekends and my sleeping in is tell 9:30 - 10 am now instead of 12 - 1

What's the background on your cell?
blue fire

What did your last sent text say?
it says i am off to work i get off at 5 text or call me then , i am gald you where not hurt in the crash

Why did you do this survey?
i had 5 min to kill and i was to shocked to do something usefull with my time

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
yupe

Will you talk to someone on the phone tonight?
i think so

Today, would you rather go forward a week or back?
forward a week,

Ever licked someone's cheek or forehead?
yes , lots sadly , lol

Do you miss anyone?
threre's always that one person.

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
maybe i have the day off but i also have to pack

Can you drive yet?
legally or illegally ? ...............................

Are you close with your mom?
sort of , closser then most

Told someone you missed them and meant it?
all the time

Where's the last boy you talked to, besides family?
going to sleep at his condo

Did you go outside for more than 30 minutes today?
no i just haled my ass out of bed 1 hour ago

How many months until your birthday?
5

Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
who says i sleepped in a bed, are you stocking me ?

Someone knocks on your window at 5am, what do you say?
it better be a good reason , and i may throw shoes if its not

Are you the type of person who likes to be out or home?
i like to be home

Right now would you like being by yourself or with a crowd of people?
myself i look like shit i have bed head

Are you a different person now than you were five years ago?
yes i have changed a lot .

Who was the last person you ate with?
um , the dogs

When was the last time you took a nap?
cant remember can i have one know?

Would you date/hook up with your brother's best friend?
no they are all weird and coming from me that means something

Is your phone right beside you?
no its on the charger

What color are your eyes?
blue

What's your hardest class?
kickboxing

Do you know anyone else's locker combination besides your own?
nope dont have lockers at work

What does your hair look like right now?
bed head is alll i am going to say

Do you have a ash tray in your room if so what colour?
no

Do you ever think "what if" about anything?
about some things , mostly bad situations.

Who's cell phone did you last use?
mine , i don't really use anyone else's.

Who was the last person you talked to last night before bed?
my friend aga

How many windows do you have open on your computer?
2 facebook and blogger

How is life going for you right now?
nicely ... about time too

What does your current Facebook status mean?
just finnished tia chi , it was relaxing

Three days from now this time, where will you be?
at work

Who was the first person you talked to today?
my aunt dee although i did the talking she did not talk back

Do you smoke weed everyday?
nope ,

Could you go a month without cursing?
yupe

When's the last time you talked with the opposite sex on the phone?
2 days ago

What do you miss?
the water

Are you a patient person?
some days

Think a lot before you fall asleep?
all the time.

What was the last thing that confused you?
my random thoughts

Do you care deeply about others?
some others.

Where did you get the shirt your wearing?
at some random stand , it says dam i am good in bed, i could sleep for days !

Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
when i dont have to work in the morning yes .

What are you doing tomorrow?
packing

Honestly, what's on your mind right now?
i need to pee but i want too get this done

What were you doing at midnight last night?
screaming at people for wakeing me up with texts

Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
oh yeah.

Have you ever sent a text to the wrong person?
yes all the freaking time

Will next Friday be a good one?
yes its pay day !

Are you a jealous person?
i can be,

Do you think age matters in relationships?
sort of

When was the last time you got a hair cut?
cant remember but i know who did it

Are you wearing a necklace; who got it for you?
not at the moment .

Do you know anyone that smokes weed?
yeahh.

when was the last time you ate popcorn?
last night

Do you call the last meal of the day dinner or supper?
dinner/supper depends on the mood

In the past week have you felt sad?
nope

What were you doing at 9:00 am today?
waking up

What color is your phone?
silver and black

Would you like to put any night on repeat, and live it forever?
oh yeah , there's defiantly a few.

What’s the greatest thing that happened to you today?
dont know yet i will get back to you

Are you tired right now?
sort of.

Do you chew on your straws?
most of the time.

Are you mad at someone right now?
nope

Do you prefer to call or text?
call

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
uhm , sortaa.

Where is your boyfriend/girlfriend right now?
no cluuue,

Where was your Facebook picture taken?
on the farm

Do you like the rain?
yes , love the rain will you make it rain

How many pillows do you sleep with?
depends i like 6 but i have 14

Did you stand on your tippy-toes for your last kiss?
noooppe,

Last night you felt?
so tired.

Are you short?
sadly

What are you listening to?
enya

Is your best friend pretty?
sure

Are you a bad influence?
maybe

Have you ever been called a bitch?
yea a lot by people i have told off

Favorite colour?
blue

What's something you really want right now, be honest!
brakefast

Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
i have.

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
they can be

How many people do you 100% trust?
there's one maybe two.

Fell asleep in the arms of the opposite sex?
yes :)

Ever sang to the person you liked?
nooope.

Do you trust all your friends?
nope.

Have you kissed anyone in the past month?
nope

Are all girls shit talkers and bitches?
noppeee,

Do you like winter?

not really

Do you tend to make things complicated?
sometimes for fun

If someone liked you, would you want them to tell you?
yeah ,

Do you hide things well or do you have a guilty conscience?
i hide some things well.

Have you ever made out with someone you weren't dating?
uh yes...

If you could pack up and move away right now, would you?
depends where.

What's one thing you do when you're mad?
bitch

How fast does your mood change?
depends on what moood.

Ever wanted something, got it, and then no longer wanted it?
yeah all the time , lol.

Do you have a job?
yes

Do you like music?
love it so much.

Did you accept or deny your last friend request?
accept

Something that starts with C?
computer.

Your ex calls you, what do you say?
hi

Do you think you'll have the same best friend a year from now?
yupe

Why do people smoke weed?
because they feel like it.

Is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
it's allll natural man.

Do you have trust issues?
not really.

Is it okay if you kiss people if you're single?
yeah , obviously.

Do you need glasses?
no l.

Are you wearing a ring, if so who gave it to you?
never wear them.

Do you think that crying is a form of weakness?
nope, people cry because they just do.

If you were in the hospital on life support, would your ex come see you?
yeah he would, he is a sweet guy

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
oh yeahhh.

Do you believe best friends can get together?
if they want to.

Couples Retreat my thoughts

2009-10-22T13:08:00.000-07:00

Couples retreat ----- The movie review

This is a must see for anyone who needs to laugh and unwind, I went to see it at the theater last night it was adult night so only 18 and up aloud in and you must show id. This was a great idea by the way , way to go hickvilla theater. no little kids or snotty teens, just adults and the place is usually empty on these nights. Also its good for couples to go and have fun.

So anyway the movie, its hilarious. I could not stop laughing I want to tell you the kid they got to play one of the couples youngest kid rocks he is a cutie . You can tell that he will be a heart breaker when he grows up, my fav moment is when he pees in the toilet in a show room for home renovations and the guy working there goes into shock because he does not now what to do about it. All actors in this movie rock, warning there are hot naked guy in this movie. I would recommend this movie for adults and couples.

Since blogger is being mean today and not letting me embed the preview of the movie I will just leave a link here for anyone who wants to check it out.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vbfhb-43UNQ

Flying Mice

2009-10-21T11:31:00.000-07:00

So we have a mouse, and its big , we have a cat he is bigger. So whats the matter then you ask .

Well the dumb cat is lazy and the freaking mouse is smart. We have caught him 3 times only to have him escape.

Ever have a mouse jump at your head , last night was a new first for me and not in a good way. I opened the pantry door at close to 1 am (I heard a noise I was not sneaking snacks) and the mouse was going after my crackers so I grab a container and I'm acting all smart I will grab the bugger and toss him outside, and i go back to the pantry and he is sitting there looking at me , I stood there kind of stunned cause ya know there is a mouse staring at me , and then he makes this running leap at my head , so I scream ( cause that's what you do when mice jump at you) and run out of the kitchen.

He has taken over the kitchen and living room , and I walk with fear that he will fly down from a high place to get me at any moment and while I am looking up in fear the dam thing runs in front of my feet, so I have to be smart and do the head up head down walking technique that makes me look like a bobble head and gives my neck a pain and my sight a few grey spots but no mouse shall sneak up on me.

How did this mouse get in your house?

Well I cared him in first class in a box from the shed, see I am smart. We had (please do note the had )a mouse in the shed so I took everything into the house and carried the dam thing into the house , we watched him climb out the box in shock . So now we have a mouse in the house.

downsizing

2009-10-20T17:47:00.001-07:00

Okay so I haled the last 5 boxes and 2 bags out of storage to go through and unpack then pack up for the final time I hope, and I was in shock . I found things I had forgot I owned like brand new cloths , scrapbook supplies , cool flame lamps , hats and wigs. I am amazed also at all the crap I thought was so important to keep last year when I packed the boxes , I have gone from 5 boxes to 1 big one, (about the size of 2 ) and 3 garbage bags - 1 full of cloths , 1 full of teddy bears (I love my teddy bears and pillows I have over 50 teddy bears and about 15 pillows on my bed or in bags) and 1 bag of blankets and towels (i love blankets as well, i have tons on my bed but I only sleep with one on me , I now I'm weird).

So I am wondering is there anyone out there that is a pack rat like me who cant help themselves?

Do you gather and buy and store crap, until even you think you have 2 much crap? I have enough crap to furnish 2 apartments and I furnished my moms place with kool stuff.

When I was working at liquidation world it closed down and I got a 90% discount as a staff member so I got my mom real leather couch set , wooden coffee table and side tables set (that was given back to me) dinning set , dinning side table , cups , plates /bowls sets , tons of cooking stuff , tons of nicknack's and stuff . Ya i rock as a daughter right .

How can I be a assume daughter like you mistress pink ?

Well my dears, you must work at a department store with a limited staff be a favorite of the manager and have the closing shift and the store must be closing down. Then when everyone leaves and you must sit your ass down in the cramped small smelly office , doing the closing report and the till crap and whatever else is on the list like moping and sweeping the floors, turning off the lights and cleaning up after the 13 year old snot bag who never can be found on his shift but always shows up to bug you on yours. You can let your mom go around with a shopping cart and put in stuff or point out furniture you want that you have moved to the back for you to pay off on pay day.

That's not right you say, or is it ? yes , yes my dears it is , you see not only did you get permission for it at times your manager joins your mom , and shows her new stock that has not been put out yet. Also you mom will be overly happy because she is scared of crowds and hates to go shopping for this reason because you are an amazing daughter you got this "job " just for her. so that she can shop in quite without no one to bug her .

While we are on the liquidation subject I must tell you I have been proposed to twice by 2 hudrits, and I was stocked by of them . It was a scary time in my life, the colony would have people come in every Sunday and that was the day i ran the store with one 12 and one 13 year old who thought it was the best thing to hid in back laughing and leave me standing at till unable to leave and being hit on by old and young hudrits . So anyway this one guy keeped bugging me and then one day he brings me a bottle of homemade wine and homemade bread , he had this big smile , I grabbed one of the kids and held him by my side and he could not stop laughing and I refused to let go of him. then the guy proposed gave me the stuff and I was like no thank you , I am not interested in getting married right now. He answered I will wait and of course the snot I had a hold of cracked up even harder . After he walked away a hudrit woman came up with a boy about 11 in age , and said good for you love you don't need him , you want a man like my boy will be , you marry my boy and he will make a fine husband for you , you will be happy to be my daughter in law. Now of course I am shocked to shit and the little snot is only being held up by his arm that I am holding because he is laughing so hard. after all hudrits had left I locked myself in the office to do "paperwork" .

When I later got over things and told my mom she never believed me, and told me to get her some of their double yoke eggs if he wanted me so bad she wanted a dozen.

Um, thanks mom .

So when she was dropped by my work and heard the others making jokes about my "fiances", then she was like don't you get ideas , you are not joining them .

I was all "duuuuuuuuuuuuuue "

evony.com you are worse then crack and yet i love you

2009-10-19T16:52:00.000-07:00

evon.com , ever heard of it? ever played it ? Well be careful you can not stop once you start. sa sa started playing and now the only time she leaves her computer is to get food or go to the bathroom and to do that she must be starving or about to piss or shit herself.

Me, I am a little better I have been playing 2 days now a grad total of oh 21 hours but I am working at the same time , going back and forth.

evony.com is a game where you build a city and become a lord or lady you get 7 days of protection when you first join as long as you do not go over the lv 5 townhall . You have to do these quest to lv up your buildings and defenses and to build an army. Then you scout out city's and lands to wage war and win honor and prestige. you can build up alliances to keep you safe.

sa sa was in a 5 hour war today that was ended by a 12 hour truce she bought at last min to save her city, the girl who went after her said she will be back tomorrow when the 12 hour ended. So she is upping everything as fast as she can.

I play on server 73 if anyone wants to join me , and its free to play.

Where the wild things are

2009-10-19T14:25:00.000-07:00

Okay who has not heard of this book , who was not read this book as a child or read it to a child . this book was the most amazing thing ever , I feel in love with it as a child and have read it to every kid I have babysat and did live in nanny with, and that's a lot of kids. The pictures are amazing , the story is one that you can get along with and understand and the words make you laugh.

Well when the previews for the movie came out I cried I laughed and I should everyone and told everyone I could. I could not wait to see this movie , I begged please please for all that is right in this world please make it worth my wild, please do not destroy this movie for me . so Friday night the movie was released and I ran not walked RAN, to the local movie theater and stood in line, sat my ass in the seat and waited .

THANK YOU SO MUCH YOU INGENIOUS PERSON WHO EVER YOU WHERE WHO MADE THIS MOVIE.

They kept it right with the book , they never strayed they made it worth everything , I have never gone to a movie that was based on a book that has meet my expectation.

The theater was packed with couples in their 80 and most people in their 40 ,I saw very few young kids and most teens and adults.

I recommend this movie for everyone you will not be disappointed and you should buy the book , read the book. you will fall in love like me and many others.

Side note --- Where the wild things are made number 1 in the box office on their first weekend.

Dad's 1 am birthday cake

2009-10-19T13:00:00.001-07:00

Okay so dad birthday was on the Tuesday after thanksgiving and he has a weakness for black forest cake , but alas mom is allergic to the stuff they bottle the Cherry's in and I could not get my hands on fresh cherry's. So I made a triple chocolate moose cake, this was a wonderful idea , or so i told myself.

The recipe has 3 steps or so it says in reality it has way to many steps.

1 step -

cake batter , each cake layer takes 30 min to bake there are 3 cake layers. Then they

must cool all the way through I would advise making room in your freezer to cool them this

takes another 30 min each. Oh and when it says use wax paper .......... use wax paper don't just load up on the butter it back fires and your cake loses shape.

2 step - moose like icing , this recipe needs to be made

5 times to get enough icing for the dam

cake , I ran out of supplies and had to go to the store to get more to make more icing. after icing the cake and between the layers put in freezer for 15 min the icing looks amazing.

3 step - chocolate glaze - make a round circle wall of icing

because this stuff will run, Also you will end up with lots of extra or maybe that's just me, you have to freeze this for 10 min after before setting in the fridge or else you will end up with a runny cake top .

All in all everyone said this was the best cake I have ever made and it was amazing there was very little left. Which is good because i was up tell 1 am making the dam thing.

Happy 50 dad!

Here are some pictures of the cake in its many steps, also below is the cake recipe .

Triple Chocolate Cake

Tips:For those who can never get enough chocolate, a chocolate cake is frosted with an easy chocolate buttercream, then finished with a dark chocolate glaze. Everything can be made with a hand-held electric mixer,or a food processor. A great cake for a party!

(****this cake is not overly sweet or chocolaty which was a shock ,it is nice and relaxing with just the right amount of chocolate and sugar.*****)

Cake:

5 squares (5 ozs.) unsweetened chocolate, chopped
1/2 c. (1 stick) unsalted butter, cut into pieces
2-1/4 c. sifted cake flour
2-1/4 c. sugar
1-3/4 tsp. baking soda
1/8 tsp. salt
1 c. buttermilk
3/4 c. water
3 eggs, graded "large"
2 tsp. vanilla

Light Chocolate Frosting:

1/2 c. (1 stick) unsalted butter, softened
Pinch salt
3-2/3 c. sifted confectioners' sugar
1/3 c. sifted or strained nonalkalized (not Dutch process) unsweetened cocoa powder
4 to 5 Tbsp. milk
2 tsp. vanilla

Chocolate Glaze:

3 squares (3 ozs.) unsweetened chocolate, chopped
5 Tbsp. unsalted butter, cut into pieces
Pinch salt
1-3/4 c. sifted confectioners' sugar
4 to 5 Tbsp. hot water
1 tsp. vanilla

For Cake: Grease bottoms of two nine inch layer cake pans (pans MUST be two inches deep) with solid vegetable shortening. Line pan bottoms with wax paper cut to fit; then grease and lightly flour both pans (the sides, too), knocking out any excess flour. Set aside.

In small heatproof bowl set over simmering water on low heat (water should not touch bottom of bowl), melt chopped chocolate and butter, stirring often just until smooth.

Remove from heat and hot water; cool at least 15 minutes, stirring occasionally.

Adjust oven rack to center of oven; preheat oven to 350'F.

Into large bowl, sift cake flour, sugar, baking soda, and salt. Add chocolate mixture (which may still be slightly warm), buttermilk, water, eggs, and vanilla.

With hand-held electric mixer, beat at lowest speed for thirty seconds. Scrape bowl and beater(s) with rubber spatula. Beat batter at medium speed for one minute.

Divide batter evenly among pans and spread level. Bake in preheated oven for 25 to 35 minutes, until toothpick inserted in center emerges with only a few moist crumbs clinging to it. Do not overbake. Cool 10 minutes, then loosen cakes gently from sides of pans. Invert onto cooling racks; gently peel off wax paper on bottoms. Re-invert and cool layers completely, right side up.

For Light Chocolate Frosting: In large bowl, combine softened butter and salt. With powerful hand-held electric mixer, beat until well-mixed. Gradually add about half of confectioners' sugar and 2 Tbsp. milk (reserve remainder). Beat at low speed to mix, then at medium speed until fluffy. Beat in cocoa. Add remaining sugar and enough milk to make a good spreading consistency, then add vanilla. Increase speed to high; beat until fluffy and well-blended.

Frost cooled cake, making frosting on top and sides as smooth as possible.
Chill frosted cake, uncovered, at least 30 minutes before applying glaze.

For Glaze: In small heatproof bowl set over simmering water on low heat (water should not touch bottom of bowl), combine chopped chocolate, butter, and salt. Stir often until smooth. Remove from heat and hot water.
Add confectioners' sugar and 2 Tbsp. hot water (reserve remainder); whisk well to combine. Gradually add enough of the remaining hot water to acieve a thick glaze consistency. Whisk in vanilla.Let stand at room temperature 10-15 minutes, whisking occasionally, to cool and thicken slightly.

Slowly pour glaze onto top center of chilled cake. Working quickly, smooth glaze onto cake sides first (an offset spatula is a big help here), then smooth glaze evenly over cake top. Try not to work over the glaze too much; it won't look as smooth if you do (it'll still taste great, though). Return cake to refrigerator. When glaze is set, wrap cake airtight. Store in refrigerator. If possible, let stand at cool room temperature 15-20 minutes before serving. Slice with a large, sharp, heavy knife (I use one with serrated edges, but a straight edge might work better for some people).

12-16 servings

It Is October RIGHT?

2009-10-10T17:50:00.000-07:00

So for the last 4 days I have been hiding indoors with the babies (Ginger and Apollo the Dobermans) because it is snowing outside, not just snowing, snow storming. Its October and it’s snow storming, why ?????

Please someone tell me why. I hate the slush and the cold, I love snow but alas it never stays as snow here in hickvilla because Alberta does not like snow just loves minus 35 and slush. Boy do they love their cold weather. Now because the babies are Dobermans and Dobermans have very little hair, the poor babies must wear clothing, sweaters and coats to keep them warm and t

hey cannot stay outside very long. Also because of the salt on the roads they have to wear booties, to protect their feet. Salt gets up into their paws and burns them.

So of

course thanks to the snow and cold, we had to drag out the old towels, sweaters, and booties. Stock up in extra toys and treats because these babies get bored fast. Since I am the only one home in the day time it is left up to me to babysit and do the routine.

Get everyone in sweaters and booties and put outside on deck, have them sit at the gate and beg so they can go to pen, drag on my stuff. Go outside to face the cold walk them to the pen unlock the pen and go inside, close pen door. stand there freezing while they run around because as soon as I head back to the house they will scream to come home, bring them home, dry them off , take of sweaters and booties, dry feet and we are done.

Sigh, once inside they follow me and jump on me and bring me toys and lean on me and because I am a push over, I cave and give them what they want. Hugs and treats and more time then I can afford in playing. When they finally sleep they look so sweet.

So I told everyone about my website and realized that my link shows my real name, something I was not ready to show but oh well. I am still wildly happy and everything seems to be going my way. I want to share a story with you, I was so happy after my post I was snacking on celery and hot cheese (because I am trying to be healthy) and a bit of cheese feel, and it fell into the shape of a flower.

I took pictures right away because that is just so kool.

(it's not that great cause it got out of focus, but you can still see it)

On a side note I forgot thanksgiving was Monday until my brother showed up here for the holiday, so I was in shook because thanksgiving means dads birthday which I forgot, crap his birthday is Tuesday. So I am going to make him a triple chocolate cake, his fav and hope he is happy.

I hope you in joyed the pictures as I just found my lost camera and I will be posting more because I love taking pictures and video.

I am going to give you a FREE WEBSITE

2009-10-06T09:14:00.000-07:00

Okay people I have done it , I have found the holy grail. I randomly on my survey search came across and anti scam website and feel in love not with the website although it is cute. With their banner that reads "I AM GOING TO GIVE YOU A FREE WEBSITE" . Now websites cost a lot of freaking money , I bought one from a hosting site and they where good but it cost me over 400. bucks for a year of hosting , 40 bucks to buy my name, and 20 bucks for 2 emails off my website. Ouch right. So I was like okay I will try this out. I want a website , well I watched this movie and I was in awa. There is a new company out called .ws and it is selling website hosting for 10.00 dollars a month . NO CATCH. You host with them and they will give you your name free , its yours for life and 10 emails. This sounds too good to be true right. That's what I thought, but no it gets better. They give you the option of just hosting a website with them or hosting a website and making money with them . They will set you up to sell their sites only you don't have to do any selling unless you want to. All you have to do is supple a link to your site because it sells itself and the best best best part YOU CAN TRY YOUR WEBSITE FREE FOR 7 DAYS and if you like it keep it for life for only 10 dollars a month , that's 120. a year. TRY TO FIND A BETTER HOSTING ANYWHERE ELSE , I DARE YOU.

But why am i telling you this , just watch the video yourself and see.

click on the cool banner that they gave me for my blog site under "my job", and watch the video about the business , then make your choice you can join the business or just host a website , when you host a website it still gives you all the business stuff free to keep , if you change your mind you can do anything with no extra cost.

Anyway I am so happy I cant stop smiling, and my family think I am crazy because I have been walking around with a grin on my face. I will tell you what I had a great idea , the first person who try's my website for 7 days and does not like it and lets me now here, then I WILL PAY FOR THEIR WEBSITE HOSTING WITH ME FOR 1 YEAR. That's 1 year of free hosting on .ws , that's a deal you can not loss .

I WANT YOU TO SMILE LIKE I AM AND BE HAPPY WITH ME.

Think Fast ---- Construction Jobs

2009-10-05T12:49:00.000-07:00

Hey guys and gals , okay so really quick post but I had to stop in to tell you about this site because if I don’t my oh so NICE pal Nick has sworn to post all my deep dark secrets on his blog before I do. So Nick works in construction and he has been looking around for a job site to help him find new construction jobs, when he came across the site http://www.ConstructionCrossing.com, he feel in love with this site. It was so easy to navigate and had helpful info on every type of construction job position. It updates it’s self so fast with jobs from tens of thousands of employers websites and job boards. He wants everyone to know about this site because having access to thousands of jobs just for your job category is the best strategy for finding a new job fast, so if you know someone in construction or work in construction and are looking for work or a new job you should check this site out.

Now Nick darling, my ever so sweet pal, now that i have spread the news of this wonderful site , can we keep the wild blog post about me to my site?

Can it be done ? Make money from home

2009-10-03T16:06:00.001-07:00

I have decided to see if you can make enough money from home to survive in this economy .
So I have joined a website called "Home Job Group" , They have a membership fee of 45.00 and its a 1 time fee that is returnable if you don't like the company within 2 months. This company works with other companies to set you up to work from home doing contract jobs. You go online and take a look at the companies that list what jobs they are hiring for and apply for them . There are tons of different types of jobs. Some last only days to months to permanent. Many you don't need training for or they pay for your training. The only thing is they do not take out taxes , so you have to keep a track of all the money sent to you trough pay pal and check form and take off 25 percent of each payment. This 25 percent will have to go in a bank account set up just for it , so that when you have to do your taxes and the government says you owe them the money you have it to pay them . This means that no mater what you can not touch that money no mater how much you need it or want to . NO TOUCHING. I am going to try many different types of jobs.

The first of the jobs

Paid Surveys - There are many companies out there that will pay you to take surveys so that they can get your opinion on their new products. Now you can not expect to make a lot of money doing this and you need to apply to more then 20 companies . I talked to a woman who does this as a full time thing but she does this for over 250 companies. This is what I am going to try and do .
So far I am a participant for 30 survey companies and I have been doing this for 2 days.
You need to fill out a lot of profile surveys to get the paying surveys but so far I have found it worth it. Also some companies offer other incentives for participating like gift cards and free products .

Helping Sites - Many help sites and forms need help answering the questions of the people who come to there site. I have come across 2 sites that are free to join and pay you to answer questions , 1 only pays people in the USA to answer questions but Canadians can answer questions and not get paid ( Ya right as if I would do that) , the other site you get .20 cents a question you help answer. Every time you make 20 dollar it is sent to your pay pal right away. So I joined that site.

Blogging For Money -on Home Job Group this blogging company is looking for people to blog and they pay for each blog you write. So I have applied there and hope to hear back from them , because I love blogging and I think I am getting great at it. So fingers crossed.

Every day I will leave an update on how my work is working out and we will see how it goes , at the end of the week I will post how much I have made.

I know how you really got the swine flue !

2009-09-30T11:24:00.000-07:00

I now I have been away way to long , long story short I have been stuck using crappy or cell phones and blackberry's to try and write my blog most times I can't or it will let me write a post and then not let me publish it . Which made me mad as hell!!!! I decided to come back with something to catch your attention and show you that my twisted mind is still out there at work in this big old world .

So here it is

( Look close to make sure you don't miss it)

Screw "I got swine flue cause I forgot to washing my hands", We all know that this is the real reason you people got swine flue !

Hope you all missed me !

p.s I can stalk people on a blackberry but not post reply s : ( I was a sad sad stalker .

they always come dressed to impress

2009-08-04T14:58:00.000-07:00

we have thunderstorm warnings all week long and so far they have not failed to put on a wild show. for the last 2 nights i have sat and watched them long into the wee hours of the morning . the poor tree in front of our house is bare of most its leaves, another tree down the street is black where the lightning hit it and our poor poor hot tube cover is a mass of dents . there is not an inch on it that is not destroyed .
when i called my mommy to see how the farm had survived she informed me that the old weeping willow tree in the park had been taken out in the storm .

i must admit that although the damages that are being done are not at all nice , standing there in the dark looking out at the lighting hitting the street right in front of you is one of the most wildest things you can do .

on a lighter note , i had a large wooden wall fall on top of me while i was sleeping last night not once not twice but three times. in my new bedroom there is a trap door in the wall that leads to a storage place that i am not afraid to admit , SCARES THE LIVING CRAP OUT OF ME . to the point that i had to put my bed up against it and sleep with a lamp on. go ahead and call me a baby but its the only way my over active mind will let me sleep because nothing can out that door when my fat ass is planted right up against it .
so its not the least to say that i woke up screaming and freaking out that something was trying to get out waking up my roommate who ran in , took one look around and laughed her ass off . halled my bed away and fixed the door then walked out. only to crack up 10 minutes later on her way to the bathroom when she saw me sitting across my room with all lights on and the TV, glaring at the little door. Finlay convincing myself that nothing was getting into my room i slowly got back into bed and fell asleep . to have the same dam door fall on me again . of course i screamed and freaked out and of course sasa came to fix it laughing . (this happen 1 hour later again) and told me to relax , not that she can say much she is afraid of the dark.
you may be thinking well so are you . but i am not .
nope i am not afraid of the dark
i am not afraid of the crawl space
i am afraid of what might crawl out of the crawl space .

between me and sasa we have most fears covered
ME
stairs
needles
things that crawl out of small places
heights
my little bros cooking
elevators
escalators (the stairs that move )(shudder)
bridges
fast moving water
miniature poodles
dark alleys
Jimmie in a speedo
scary movies

SASA
the dark
hot tubes
hospitals
needles
bugs of any size
dandy long legs (they are so scary they need their own category)
crickets ( again very fucking scary , more scary then dandy long legs )
tofu
my driving
Jimmie in a speedo

off the top of my head that's 21 fears .
man we suck lol .

porno makes the world go round - quoto from jimmie

2009-07-29T19:37:00.000-07:00

so wild and weird , i am living in a basement apartment with my best friend who now calls me tata because i came up with the way kool idea to call her sasa , (take the first 2 letters of your name or nickname and repeat. ) now we cant stop calling things weird names. exp - car = caca , grandma = grgr ............ you get the idea. its like a bad inside joke that never stops . trust me we have trys but for some reason our childish minds keep bringing out the stupid names.

i still have not gotten to watch cake boss or true blood. i am pouting, and clam i will soon die of withdrawals.

oh oh oh but i do have a hottube the size of my little bros kitchen in the back yard and i am trying to live in it. i looooooooooooooove hot tubes and i get into it every night and have to be dragged out. onk - sasa uncle our landlord says he will charge me more rent if i want to spend the rest of my days in it. he was joking but i think sasa will get him to so i will stay out of it , she is scared of hot tubes and so she hates to go in them.

i have a lone of my good buddy jimmies laptop for a few weeks , he should up with it and said i heard you where Internet deprived so here you go ............. but stay out of my porn .

lol, well i admit i tried to but it was so hard i mean he has this big file right on the desk top that says porn. and i am such a bad bad girl , i went in and renamed all his porno files and pics and out of badness . lol so they have really weird names . do not worry he will not kill me , he has a twisted mind like me so he laughed his ass off when he got over the first shock of a his precious porno file renamed g on g and a nice shot of Vin diesels cute little ass . lol

withdraws

2009-07-16T13:40:00.000-07:00

i have not watched true blood or cake boss in 3 weeks,
i got to watch 1 episode of cake boss Monday night that was nice but it does not do it for me .
so now i am pouting .

update

2009-07-16T13:06:00.000-07:00

this is a summery of my last few weeks ,
i got on a greyhound and traveled 2 and a half days , 3 nights to get back to Calgary ab. the night i left Ontario was a wild one , my cuz 1 of dee ran into the house just before i left and closed the door fast , she had this big grin on her face. when asked what was going on she informed us she crashed the Catholic grad dance at the Catholic school .
(i will post pictures later but so you get an idea , my little cuz is wearing a skimpy dress , cut short on her legs and around her boobs so you have a very good view of her body)
cuz 3 of dee --- my friend wanted me to go to the party so i crashed it and the principle was staring over at me , i new that he new i did not belong there and i did not want to get busted so i stole a Honor role meddle to blend in and make it look like i go to the school................................ its okay i found the one with a friends name on it and grabbed that one , ill give it to him tomorrow . even though i had the meddle he was still staring so i bailed and came home.

me --- hum , you don't now why he was staring ? could it be the fact that you are wearing a reveling dress and its a catholic school , i beat no one else wore anything like that.

aunt dee --- laughing away

cuz 3 of dee laughs ---- oh and in the ceremony they where all god this and Jesus that and the principle is all god has plans for you and walk with Jesus on the road or something.
i was like don't they now there is no Jesus and there are more then one god.

aunt dee and me --- laughing

aunt dee ---- it was a catholic school .

(for those of you who do not now my family is pagan )

THE BUS RIDE HOME

i got a bunch of guardians on my way back to redneck villa . it started with a man who is a cook on a tugboat he was visiting his family in somewhere and had me sit in the seat ahead of him , so that he could keep an eye out for me , then there was an older man who i just adore who was going to visit his brother , he has diabetes and had a stroke. he had taught himself how to read and write and walk again and used a Cain . his Cain was past down to him generation to generation , and was made of craved wood. (can you tell i just had a soft spot for him ) and when he told me i looked like his wife , that was it i had to look out for him , on the trip . next came the french Italian , who chatted with me , along the way . and finally a family containing a sister and brother and the sisters kid who where headed to the same place as me. this made up a little click if you will , and we all looked out for each other. i have pictures that i will post soon along with a few short notes.

side note ---- i hate sleeping in buses the seats are so freaking small. and they make you get off the buss every morning at random times like 3 am - 4 am - 6 am . for 1 hour to clean the freaking bus when you just got to sleep .

when i got home i was greeted by dad who took me to see moms babes (the dogs) who slobbered me , to now end . then i got to see mom , give them gifts and then i hit the shower . nothing like washing off 3 days buss grime.

i found out that my mom packed up all my stuff and had it in storage the week after i left and decided to stay in Toronto for the summer and had even had a guy going to rent my room . all the while calling me a telling me to come home. what the hell ?

i got to see my little bro and it was so great since i went to Ontario we talk more and omg we say i love you to each other when we see each other and when we call each other. i think it scarred him that i could take off with no thoughts and disappear , he did not even now i was going to ontraio until 3 weeks after i left . its sweet .

i am now in calgary .
i am crashing with a friend and job hunting and apartment hunting .

last note on my phone i can stock peoples blogs but cant leave messages so a little note i am still watching you if you are on my watch list.

travel most of canada in 2 days and 7 hours 35 minutes

2009-07-01T18:12:00.000-07:00

I have 1 hell of a post coming up.but at the moment my computer is down so I am posting via cell phone . So I will post soon but I am still reading my fav blogs even if I don't leave messages because this phone is picky. Happy canada day to all.

They learn Young

2009-06-23T16:57:00.001-07:00

so i took my cuz 3 of dee to the water park down the street. it is so freaken hot here and when we got there we where informed that the water park is having issues , we where there with a group of 14 kids all ranging from the ages of 1 1/2 to 5 years. then there was my little cuz 3 of dee age 9 and soon to follow where 3 young girls about the age of 13 -14 . we all stood around for about 40 minutes waiting for the water to start up , while all the parents and grandparents waited the kids played and i fiddled with my camera.

then finally the button worked and the water came on.

this is cuz 3 of dee under the gate in the blue soccer top and the Hawaiian shorts.

( i am such a kool cuz i took him right after school before his soccer game )

after a great pile of fun where all kids ran , laughed and played in the water lasting a whole 6 minutes, then the water stopped.

this one little boy (age 2 ) let out such a scream and ran to his mom , pointing at a girl who had followed him , he yelled

"she stopped the water "

his mother looked at him and said " ya blam it on your sister, the water ran out go try and push the button"

all i can think is omg self they learn so fast these days , it took my little brother until he was like 5 to start blaming me , mainly because i was a GOD in his eyes because i am so kool .

hey stop that i see you rolling your eyes.

anyway this button that controls the water park is broken , the town really did not think this one through . they made a small round ball like button on the ground with a tinny whole in the top, this is set right next to the water spots so that when the water is on the sensor gets wet . in a happy world where everything works when you tap the ball with your foot it turns on the water park . instead its sensor is busted so kids and adults spend hours stomping up and down in hopes of the water park starting on. the only time the park seems to work is at 12pm at night when it turns on to flush the system and runs straight for 1 hour.

hes my dad and you cant have him.

2009-06-21T07:53:00.000-07:00

last year, a few days just before my 19 birthday mom brought over him. she had meet him like 5 0r 6 years ago and they had been friends. now they where dating.

for a kid who has only ever called 1 man dad (and that stopped when i turned 10 ) and had put up with the asshole boyfriends of my mom, i did not care.

ya another one i thought , what the hell might as well talk to this one.

(i had been band of the last ones property and been told if he sees me he would slap me , man that did not go over well all cause i told him what i really thought of him, and it was all the truth)

he stated that he just wanted to be friends nothing more nothing less ,he wanted to now us and talk to us . he thought we where cool and sweet, little bro (age 17) and me . he was okay , he passed the test . hes not an ass , he knows all about kool things and OMG did you say chicken and pony farm. so i could like go gather eggs and feed the chickens . (ponies are so overrated when your 18 but chickens , wow id take out anyone or anyth

ing in my way to play with a chicken , they are sooooooooooo COOL. ) ..... (and YES I HAVE BEEN TOLD I'M WEIRD BEFORE) okay this guy is better then okay he has now reached cool statues .

over time he has proven to be one of the most amazing people i now .

on my 19 birthday my mom forgot it - way ta go mom, looking at the July month on the calender in June. so he took us out for super and did not care that i had no idea where i wanted to go so he drove around to all the places and did laps of the town until i could decided.

he moved me out of my moms house (the first time) into m

y own house putting up with the fact that i forgot to finish packing, then moved me out of my first house when the plans fell through the cracks and i again forgot to finish packing . mom and him where at it tell like 4 am and he had to work at 6 am. (so did mom) then he moved me out of my second house a few months later and back at home , (NEVER rent with a friend /friends or listen to a friend when they say they have a plan )

he listen to me talk , like really listen , told me things about his childhood , made me laugh. he became a confidant.

he likes jokes and has a sense of humor to match mine .

he put up with relatives that even family have trouble being around for very long. he did without for them and us .

he drove me around when he did not really have gas or the money.

he put up with the Christmas disaster that is our family.

he LOVES my MOM , like there is no one else .

and when i called him dad for the first time he cried , and told me how much he loved me and little bro and how he did not want to push us into loving him , and he would be proud to have us as his kids.

he and mom are getting married this new years .

for these facts he is my DAD!

happy fathers day dad , you are the best dad a girl could want.

i want to say a special happy fathers day to all the dads who step up to the plate when they could have found someone easier to date. to all the dads who remembered that dating a woman with kids is a packaged deal , and still stuck around . who should up to events and just listen and stuck it out through the weird getting to now you stage.

THANK YOU ! it takes a special person to do what you did .

my family is so twisted we attack comedians

2009-06-19T18:18:00.000-07:00

did you just say your family is so twisted you attack comedians

yupe you heard me right, let me explain

to do this we must travel back to this morning or should i say 1:21 pm

ah i remember it well , i had just watched the first part of star wars movie 1 (and for the first time since it came out i finally manage to sit still and watch it and i was not even sleeping , shocking i know but that is not even the best part of my day) i had wandered

up into the kitchen and was looking around for something to eat , i started thinking self what do you want ............. hum pancakes .

what a good idea self and so i started making pancakes .

while making these pancakes i looked at my cuz 2 of dee and remembered that she had been to some concert that night.

me - hey how did your concert go

cuz 2 of dee ---- good .......... do you know who this is *points to a picture

me ----- ya some ...um............

cuz 2 of dee ---- comedian Trevor Boris

me -- - ya ............... ( i never can remember anyone's name but Jeff Dunham when it comes to comics .... is that bad? but i can point out the good ones faces )

cuz 2 of dee --- i love him , Trevor Boris is the best comic

me --- cool

cuz 2 of dee ---- he was at the concert last night

me --- really

cuz 2 of dee ----- ya and only me and this other girl recognized him , i think he was a little bummed because he is such a BIG star and no one noticed him. and i got my picture taken with him see here . * shows me below picture on facebook

( in the middle - Trevor Boris )

(to his right - cuz 2 of dee )

(p.s as i was informed the faces they are making are pimp faces because that's whats cool ....)

( i am so not cool because i have standards about how i don't like to look like a deer in headlights ................. and most of the pictures of me are drunk or laughing ... aka with my mouth open and my eyes closed)

me --- so did you get his autograph

cuz 2 of dee --- no i forgot a pen

me --- what that's the first rule of going to a concert always have at lest 3 pens and 10 sharpies and.......... clothing that you can write on

cuz 2 of dee --- ya well i attacked him

me --- you what ?

cuz 2 of dee ---- i attacked him , he was standing there and i saw him and i was like , that's Trevor Boris to my friend. so i walked over and i was like are you Trevor Boris and he SMILED AT ME and was like yes i am . and then i screamed and jumped on him and attacked him .

me ---- you ATTACKED Trevor Boris ...........

cuz 2 of dee GRINS

i thought to self OMG only in our family

me --- um ......... what he do

cuz 2 of dee --- he laughed , and then we hung out and took lots of pictures and he looked through my camera and told me what pictures he liked and did not like , and told me to add him on facebook .

(thank the gods she only attacked a comedian )

me ------- did you tell your mom that you attacked him

cuz 2 of dee ---- i asked her if she knew who he was and she said no

me ---- well you know what will happen now

cuz 2 of dee --- what

me ---- you may end up in his next show , i mean don't comics talk about funny shit that happens to them in there acts whats funnier then him going to a concert and only two 12 year old girls recognized him , and then 1 of them attacks him.

cuz 2 of dee ---- really

me ---- maybe

me ----- ................... sooooooooooo what else happened ?

cuz 2 of dee ----- this band (some name cant remember ) was playing and they where drinking pop and water on stage and when they got off stage they left like 50 of them on stage and i looked at friend and we both ran for the stage and i grabbed on . a half empty bottle that (some random name ) had drank from and then a guard grabbed me and she was like you have to ask your you cant keep it but the guys had left the stage and she took it and put it back on the stage . its not fair , i would have cherished that bottle like it was a god if i had keeped it.

at this point i am at a loss for words and had been dragged away from my pancakes to watch video of the concert and pictures of various HOT band members.

so for the people out there who do not recognize him

<- this is Trevor Boris

his website is

http://www.trevorboris.com/

he is on much musics video on trial alot.

this is a video of his act on just for laughs

all i have left to say is love your family no matter how twisted they may be and no matter how many comics they attack .

the birthday

2009-06-18T14:45:00.000-07:00

today i celebrated cuz 3 of dee's 9th birthday while everyone was out of the house . he walked in the door after school and i looked over at him ,

me ----so your mom wants us to cook chicken nuggets and fries for super but i think we should walk to dq and eat burgers . what do you think ?

cuz 3 of dee --- i like you option.

me --- okay get your coat while your mom is out we'll go .

we went to dq and of course being the cool older cuz we had to get a ice cream pizza to bring home, smarty style.

walk home

me --- we will eat ice cream pizza and you can watch a movie while i blog

cuz 3 of dee --- no one else is home

me --- you will have control of the remote

cuz 3 of dee --- we have tv, pizza and chicks

me --- what

cuz 3 of dee ---- okay maybe not chicks but if we put the garbage out the wives will not bother us.

me ----thinks to self ............................................ hes 9 ...................................... what the hell is going on in his little mind ........................ what wife ....................................... i don't swing that way .................................. i pity the person who gets him when he is older , i sympathise with you future wife of cuz 3 of dee , its not our fault when he is not listening to his crazy older sisters fight it out, or is in the twisted world of his moms or mine sense of humour. he is spending weeks at his single fathers apartment and all the programing is undone .

chicken fried rice side note

2009-06-17T12:59:00.000-07:00

cuz 1 of dee ------------hey you remember when you said you could make fried rice

me ----------um ya

cuz 1 of dee *dances across the kitchen* ------------yes , I'm in a Vietnamese food mood.

minutes pass by

cuz 1 of dee ---------- so we have rice ,

me ------------ ya

cuz 1 of dee ------------ can we put eggs in it

me ------------------that's how its made , with rice , eggs and veggies

cuz 1 of dee ------------------yeeeeeeeeeessssssss ..............................................so we can put onions in it

me ----- yup

silence

cuz 1 of dee ------ are onions bad for you

me - ---- no

cuz 1 of dee ---------- then why do they make you cry

me --------------.... um they have an acidic juice in them that releases into the air when you cut them that affects your tear duckets

cuz 1 of dee --------------------- but would the acidic be bad for you

me ------------------nope lots foods have acidic stuff in them and they are okay to eat.

cuz 1 of dee ------------------ can we not put carrots in it

me ----------------why

cuz 1 of dee - ----------carrots are gross .......... wait do we have peas

me ------------------ya

cuz 1 of dee ----------------- can we put peas in it

me ----------------yup

cuz 1 of dee - --------------------- will you make it with chicken.... we can use the chicken left over from yesterday ,

yes this is going to be great

me ------*nods*

cuz 1 of dee ----------------- its a shame we don't have corn ,

me -------------we do

cuz 1 of dee ----------------assume this is going to be the best ever , if i was male i would have needed a condom .

me -----------------what

cuz 1 of dee --------------*grins * its that great

me ------.........................

me ---------------I'm going to blog that

cuz 1 of dee -----------*turns and grins back at me * okay

few minutes pass

cuz 1 of dee ------------do our insides look like that

me -------what

cuz 1 of dee ------------a lamb

(i left the food channel on while i waited for the computer )

me ----------no, but if you opened a pig that would be us , our body organs are in the same place .

cuz 1 of dee ------------but not a lamb

me -----------no , different animals have different placed organs

cuz 1 of dee ------------so a chickens stomach is next to mouth

me ------------no , but a fishes stomach is and a cow has like 3 stomachs so they cant be next to its mouth.

cuz 1 of dee ------------a cow has 3 stomachs

me ---------um ya or 2 i cant remember

dee -------------can you both stop , i am changing the channel your grossing me out and i want to eat my super

cuz 1 of dee ------------why the hell does it have 3 stomachs

me --------------to digest its food ,

cuz 1 of dee ------------but it eats the same things we do

me -----------cows eat grass , we eat cows

cuz 1 of dee ------------we can eat grass 2

me ------------------ ya but its different

dee - --------------okay that's enough i want to eat my food , and i don't need to be grossed out ,

cuz 1 of dee ------------why you eat lamb

me ------------some people cant watch their food being prepared it grosses them out , so they cant eat it

cuz 1 of dee ------------why

me ---- (thinks about breakfast .... i will tell you later in post)

i cant explain because it would turn you off a type of food and piss off your mom ... again

(see June 11 , mommy i don't want to wear a tinfoil hat )

cuz 1 of dee ------------so i cant watch you cook fried rice

me -----------no , you can watch stuff like that its mostly meats

cuz 1 of dee ------------i can watch someone cook a sausage

dee --------------that's enough

silence

me ------------------not if someone brought home the stuff and made the sausage in from of you before cooking it

that's enough i want to eat .

WARNING DO NOT READ IF SQUEAMISH

OR LIKE EGG YOKES

breakfast ----- i was looking at my eggs thinking about the sausages and then i thought you know all

the people who eat their eggs with the yokes runny are eating alive baby chickens.

if you think about if egg yokes are the baby chicken and the white stuff is the whats it called bag

so when you cook an egg you cook the bag and you leave the egg/baby chicken raw as in alive , just over heated .

man , if some people thought about this or where told this a lot of people would stop eating eggs , hummmmmmm.

oh well .

then i finished my breakfast

OKAY SO YOUR SAFE TO READ AGAIN

so now you now how i fit in so well with my twisted family , my mind is much worse then most of the other members

actually can go as far as to say i am the queen because even in my family's standards i have a very fucked and twisted

freaky mind. i just never vocalized most of my thoughts tell now.

RECIPE FOR CHICKEN FRIED RICE

chicken cooked , you can cook it in spices or sauces , or leave it plain or used left over chicken

(you can use beef , pork or shrimp as well or in place of )

rice cooked before hand

veggies (any type you want , the best to use are onions , mushrooms , peas ,carrots, celery , peppers, zucchini,

broccoli )

garlic

oil

salt pepper

eggs

veggie stock (you can get this by boiling veggies in water ... the water takes the flavor and vitamins of the veggies)

in another pan put chicken stock about half cup let get almost to boiling point add veggies ,

(this is healthier way to cooking veggies or chicken as well it cooks them without added oils

and it makes them taste great)

when they are tender but still have a snap take them off and strain

heat up pan or wok , put in oil and heat

toss in chopped garlic , this makes the oil garlicky ( its really good to put garlic thin slices in the oil when you cook

because it adds flavor to your cooking)

toss in rice , beat eggs in a bowl and pour in on top of rice

stir tell egg is cooked .

toss in chicken / meat

stir , and toss in veggies

stir again , then add a little salt and pepper

all done and it takes 10 minutes and it taste great

i felt really brainy answering all my little cuzs questions even if i may have bullshitted a few

japan is not in china

2009-06-17T12:26:00.000-07:00

my cuz 1 of dee learned a new lesson today and racked up points in the dua category for our family.

cuz 1 of dee --- i learned something new in school today

me ---- what

cuz 1 of dee----i learned japan is not in china

me * blank look*----- um , okay

cuz 1 of dee ---- we had a class discussion was on china and the fact that they do not have that many females.

this is what happened

cuz 1 of dee - well they clone females , japans smart .

student - what

cuz 1 of dee - you now china , they are smart there so japan can clone females so there are more females.

student - um japans not in china .

cuz 1 of dee - oh .....

sigh ..... well we never claimed to be the sharpest tools in the shed but hey at lest we are in the shed.

only in this house !

2009-06-16T19:21:00.000-07:00

watched cake boss last night I'm a BIG fan of cake boss , soooo cant wait to see next weeks ep . i recommend that you watch cake boss if you like funny , cake , baking , Italians , reality , stupid people, artwork or your looking for something new . its a blast to watch and i have falling head over heels in love with it.

here is a link

http://tlc.discovery.com/tv/cake-boss/cake-boss.html

i started today off slow with some reading and followed it up with music. topped it off with a call from mom back home . the called made me a little pissed at first but then i was like i will survive and moved right along.

call from home

mom -----how are you ?

me ----- good

mom ------ i have been missing you a lot lately i think you should come home .

hows the job hunt ? did you get more resumes out ? where are you dropping them off at ?

me ----um there are 2 new restaurants opening in town i am dropping them off at , i went to drop them off Friday but no one was there, they are not open yet and will not open for a few weeks . so i am going back today.

mom ---- okay well i think you should get out of bed and give them a call and maybe drop some off , if you cant get a job in 2 -3 weeks i am buying a plain ticket home and you can come home.

(i woke up at 5 am because that's when cuz 1 of dee sets her alarm to wake her up for school , she goes to a school out of town and it takes her 1 hour 30 min to get ready when she does go , i was wake and lying in bed for the rest of the morning , i manage to fall asleep somewhere around 1230 -1 am . )

me ----- I'm out of bed , i have been for a while and there are only 5 jobs open in this town right now ( 1 part time , 1 i am not qualified for, 1 that last 3 days , 2 that are the restaurants )

mom --- oh i now , but I think there are better things you could be doing , like being home and walking the dogs .

me ---- ................................ ya

it kind of wanders off from there and then she talks to my aunt.

( i should mention that every time i move out try to move out she shows up and unpacks my bags or packs my bags and moves me home or makes me stay at home , while at 16 my brother had moved out and had no trouble , he just packed his bags and left and that was that , he still moved back every time he needed to but it was on his own terms when he wanted to and he moved back out when he wanted to . never a word edge wise. i guess in a way i should feel loved but when your 20 and have been trying to move out since you where 16 and everytime you tryed or talked about it you where shut down , and yet when you stop talking and stop doing she started talking and saying i should . i live in a very twisted world )

this is what pissed me off you called me at 3 30 pm in the afternoon and just assumed i was in bed , what the hell, then you don't think I'm not trying for a job , then you say well this is when i buy your ticket home , this is when you come home and the icing on the cake YOU THINK THAT THERE ARE BETTER THINGS FOR ME TO BE DOING LIKE WALKING YOUR DOGS !!!

please hold while i scream "JUST CAUSE I CAN"

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

*hands to face slowly brush back hair , breath in , breath out *

okay chill girl .

did you feel the earth shake yet . it was me , I'm a little bitchy ...... just a little ...... about this much

*holds fingers apart ( )...... ( ) {- hint = those are my chubby little fingers.

side story ---- this reminded me of a story , i was at my x boyfriends house and a bunch of us where hanging out , anyway Jamie a friend of ours goes into the tiny tiny bathroom off the kitchen (this thing can barely hold the toilet and the sink, its like glorified crowded crawlspace/cupboard. ) anyway after 20 minutes we where all calling out to him , and

Jamie yells back shut up I'm taking a dump .

to which Jimmie being a smart ass yells out did you warn them down there (meaning Australia /china area).

Jaimie's reply was fuck no .

Jimmie then yells at the floor title wave.

we all laugh that's funny and continue on with the party . in the morning the paper was delivered to the door and when x pulled it in he just cant stop laughing, there on the front page ,( i am not making this shit up its to funny to ) was a picture of Australia and these headlines

TSUNAMI HITS DOWNUNDER: Solomons hit Australia fears the worst

April 2, 2007

It’s as major wave sparked by what scientists are saying was a massive 8.9 Earthquake in the Pacific. Reports say many south pacific island badly hit in what seems to be one of the worst disasters to hit the area in recent times.

["... U.S. Geological Survey: quake measured magnitude-8.0 and struck at 7:39 a.m. about 6 miles beneath the sea floor, 217 miles northwest of the capital, Honiara. ..."]

we really did feel bad for everyone but no one could stop laughing for days , all of us cracked jokes about Jamie's shit causing shit and the poor guy could not go to the bathroom for weeks with out laughter and jokes following him . although he took it all in good fun and joked himself .

what are the odds that this would happen , after a joke like that , pretty slim i am guessing.

so on with the events of the day.

i did drop my resumes off got told that i would here calls, looked for the kitten she is missing , one of the kids let her out and but good news she was seen playing in the bushes 3 houses down about 20 min ago , she was not there when we where told and rushed there but the neighbourhood kids are now on the lookout for her.

i dyed my hair today rush red, jumped in the shower closed my eyes and forgot what i was doing open my eyes looked down at myself seen a flood of red and almost had a panic attack that i was bleeding. totally freaked myself out until i remember just as i was about to scream bloody murder ... oh ya i had dye in my hair. way to go self , that has to be one of my finest moments.

some conversations of the day to pass the time (i swear i think these moments must only happen to people in my family )

5:30 - 6pm

cuz 1 of dee -----can you stop doing that

cuz 2 of dee-----what

cuz 1 of dee ----- seriously stop shoving food in your mouth , it looks like your trying to make out with the garlic bread. look at her. its like shes a chipmunk , trying to save up for the freaking winter, winter is a long ways away .

cuz 2 of dee ----winters not that far away

cuz 1 of dee ------um ya it is . gess will you stop that , that's so annoying .

10 pm

cuz 1 of dee ----omg can you stop eating that, it looks like your making out with the spoon , what are you eating

cuz 2 of dee ---- crushed up freezes

cuz 1 of dee ---- ew , seriously stop , you look retarded . what the hell is wrong with you.

me ----- why is it that today you keep saying your sister is making out with something?

cuz 1 of dee ----- well,she is look at her. she is trying to make baby's with the spoon. omg that looks like cum , the spoon just cummed in your mouth.

cuz 2 of dee ---- its cause i mixed white and purple freezes together.

cuz 1 of dee ---- ew you just jazzed in your mouth. that's disgusting .

me ----- cuz 1 of dee only could have such a beautiful mind as to think up something like that.

remember you have to love your family no mater how twisted or weird they are ....... or so i keep trying to tell myself these days .

notes

2009-06-15T17:38:00.000-07:00

so last night i was glad for the not sleeping part because....... it meant i was wide awake for the 1 am viewing of TRUEBLOOD SEASON 2 EP 1. yaaaaaaa

i cant say enough about true blood , i love it like there is no other . i am so happy when it came along and i got hooked on the first 5 min of the season 1 ep 1 . i love the opening song . to the dismay of all family members i do feel the compulsive need to sing along in my not so pretty vocals and i will act on that compulsive need. i am on the hunt for that song and when i get my hands on it ohhhhhhhh the fun i will have.

other updates

- i am adding a slide show with the joyful cast of surreal family life journal.

- cuz 1 of dee and cuz 2 of dee felt the need to make up for all the non fighting they did yesterday morning by screaming and fighting before they went to sleep yesterday night.

- i dumped a bucket of what i thought to be dead fish only to turn out to be live fish down the sewer in front of the house , along with 4 tadpoles that where in the growing legs stage . so i am pretty sure that i can say with confidence there are animals running rampant in the sewers now other then rats or mice.

- our yard seems to be full of worms to the joy of this robin who i get to watch with glee , chase them and try to grab them to eat only to miss each one 1 second to late. its priceless , Alas it flew away when i try ed to take a picture.

- i have seen more goth kids here in this town then i have seen in the city of Calgary Alberta and this town is so small there are no hotels . Calgary ab population 1,042,892. , the small town i live in 4839. i am sorry that's sad and weird.

side note i have decided to share with you my family's photo sense of humor .

ONLY in my family will you come across some one who does this .

oh the cats licking its ass , i bet this will make a great picture ! (art by cuz 1 of dee)

have a great night and remember LOVE your family no mater how weird and twisted their sense of humor maybe.

we can survive

2009-06-14T11:37:00.000-07:00

so again a night of no sleep , only to get to sleep to have the neighbours wake me up .

they have friends crashing at their place but not inside oh no , they had to pull out the camper and set up camp on the doorstep . where they and their lovely 2 kids enjoyed saying hello to the neighbour hood by having the youngest scream at the top of her lungs because she could. and of course this all takes place next to my bedroom window the only bedroom window on that side of the house that just happens to be stuck open . yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. don't i feel special.

i thought about leaning out the window and joining her in a lovely welcome new day early morning scream , just cause i could but decided since my scream would included a few choice words and we must to make a good impression on the neighbours it would be best to hall the blankets over my head.

ah silence i have missed you , where have you been hiding why have you forsaken me .

she shut up , you remembered me , I'm flattered . i can now enjoy your sense of Peace ........................ ah to lye in bliss. the only thing that could make this any nicer would be the bang bang bang of my cuz 2 of dee trying to get into the house , she had left to visit a friends the day before and i do believe she crashed at a party . hum well its a good thing i was babysitting the cuzs because something "bad" might have happened . rolls eyes , right .

today i was amazed and i was proven wrong , i have adopted the motto we can survive as the 2 pair (cuz 1 of dee and cuz 2 of dee) managed to only have 1 fight that lasted 2 min , before leaving today TOGETHER to walk TOGETHER across town. OMG bet you never thought that would happen, i know i never. of course in their wake they left a trashed liveing room , kitchen and bathroom. well it could have been worse they could have stayed and screamed at each other.

okay

i say to the empty house ,

whose turn is it to help clean ?

silents

okay mine i guess ................... right after a bathroom brake.

how the fuck does all the toilet paper get used in 1 night ? great so now i have to do the bathroom waddle/walk to the bathroom 2 floors down to get toilet paper .

get up to the kitchen and look at the disaster dishes, yupe fun . turn on some music , empty the dishes from both sinks , clean both sinks , load up soapy water . load in plates , bowls change song . wash plates and bowls . make juice and put to chill. go to computer and read a blog .

cuz 2 of dee walks in looks at the dishes , looks in the cupboard grabs the last clean cup that i had planed to use to drink juice. pours glass of juice drops cup in water , looks around , looks at me looks back at the dishes and walks out of the house .

hummmmmmmmmmm , i think she was trying to say something . i wounder what it could have been . i swear if i was a mean cuz i would have put salt in her bed , used her toothbrush to scrub the toilet , hid her fav cloths and used up the 52 free min of computer tv to watch 2 and a half men , so that gossip girl would have to wait for the next day to be watched every day but as i am a good cuz i will save all my issues and trust me i have a lot , add them with my anger and wait tell i see my little bro and then i will scream at early hours in the morning just cause i can .

just because i want the cuz of the year award does not mean i want the sis of the award . i mean i have been after that award for 18 years and now its just a done that been there thing. so beware little bro i have issues and i will use them .

so looking at the rooms and the dishes and the computer i thought gee i could clean to no end and hope no one gets home by the time I'm done so that i can blog or i can stay on now and do cleaning when they get home .

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

life is just full of those hard decisions you now . i bet you cant guess which one i went with.

no i am not awake

2009-06-13T16:37:00.000-07:00

so last night i lay awake all night , i got to listen to the neighbours talk at 4am . yes that's right 4 FUCKING AM .

finally at 6:30 am or some where after as that was the last time i looked at the clock i finally fell into a deep sleep , only to be woken up at 11 am so i got around 4 to 5 hours of sleep. man was i in a good mood when i got up . i looked like Medusa , my hair stood on end , my eyes had bags and where wide open in shock at the light that hit me in the face .

so i tried to watch hes just not that in to you and night at the museum 2 , will not tell you how i got the 2 one but lets just say when they did not work half way into them i was VERY CRANKY and decided that although going on a Godzilla/ Medusa i will turn you to stone with my gaze and then crush you with my wild cranky strength rampage through the tiny town i would wander to my room , throw on my ipod and read my new book. i emerged from my crypt at 6 pm , happy hungry and looking for the computer i wanted to read some blogs , bitch that I'm bitchy and say wow today sucks .

baby crazy mom

2009-06-12T16:35:00.000-07:00

yes that's right mom i m blogging you ,

my mother the baby crazzy mom . she wanted a huge family since she was small , she has a lot of love to give and a big heart but she cant have anymore kids she only got to have 2 .... me and my bro. man what a disappointment eh , its a good thing you had me first so you where not as sad when bro came along and showed his ugly mug . ; p . lol just kidding love my little bro.

i kind of miss him , who else would call me on my 20 birthday to say hey happy birthday , you sound like shit and your old , when you coming home i need someone to bug .

that's called family love for you people who have never experienced its sickly sweet flavor . yupe family LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE . don't you feel it ripping up your stomach making you want to puck with its over powering bitter sweetness.

so back to mom , she started this when i was 16.

I'm waiting for my grankids, if you have a kid now , you now you cant take care of it so you can give it to me .

over the years i have fended off these statements with i think bro wants to give you one first , or go ask bro he loves you more today .

yesterday i found this posted on facebook on my moms page.

Watching some kids playing in the water now I am missing my kids! Why did you have to grow up so fast? hmmmmmmm I got a empty nest yep ! Waiting for grandchildren..................

my reply ------------ guess you ll have to keep waiting , unless bro wants to give you one now

her reply ----------- ROFLAO bro said that to me about you! Oh well good thing ginger will have some babies on about the 18 of july...........LOL

ginger is her female Doberman , Apollo is my male Doberman. i don't care if you paid for him mom or if you trained him or feed him . he loves me more . 8 P

so what do you do when you have a baby crazzy mom ............................. you move to another Provence and pray to the gods your brother knocks someone up before someone knocks you up ............................ lol .

love ya and miss ya mom , dad and bro

I WILL NOT EAT IT

2009-06-12T16:14:00.000-07:00

sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo..................................

after a fun night cuddling a basket , i have decided that i will never eat can fish again , NEVER .

i swear on all that is holy i will not eat it , i will not cook with it .

do you like can fish ?

i do not like it ,

pink i am

i do not like can fish

would you like it

here or there

i would not like it

here or there

i would not like it anywhere

i do not like can fish

i do not like them

pink i am

would you like it in a boat?

would you like it with a goat ?

i do not like it in a boat

i do not like it with a goat

i do not like it here or there

i do not like it anywhere

i do not like can fish

pink i am

would you eat it in a box

would you eat it with a fox

not in a box

not with a fox

not in a boat

not with a goat

i would not eat it here or there

i would not eat it anywhere

i would not eat can fish

i do not like can fish

pink i am

would you ? could you?

in a car ?

eat it ! eat it !

here it is

i would not

could not

in a car

fuck off i say i will not , can not eat canned fish again .

so........... you get the point i have put down my foot , my throat is raw , my bedroom smells of puck and i looked like shit this morning , all can fish is band.

on a side note , good luck cuz 2 of dee at soccer today , will miss you cuz 3 of dees who is at his dads for the weekend.

well thats just FUCKING PEACHY

2009-06-12T15:27:00.000-07:00

In life you always have someone who is your confident , someone who is there to listen to hear you , and to give advice , someone who you trust to tell things you would never tell anyone else. things that would haunt you for the rest of your life it they ever got out. sometimes its a cat, a dog , a fish , sometimes its a teddy bear or a journal , or god. but most times its a friend someone you have known for so long that they are like family , you trust them to the point that they could hold your heart in one hand over a leaping fire and you now that they would never drop you into the flames.
well once in a while they do , and it hurts. you can feel the heat rush to your face as they reveal a story . you can feel the pain and burning sensation as the flames finally grab you . you hear the snapping and sizzling and you wounder what could make such a inhuman noise, only to realize that, that noise is coming from you its a moun , or a soft cry , or even just a rush of air .

its a cruel way to say "fuck you " , to say " see what i can do "

well when i told a story to you , and you said i promise to never tell it to anyone , i believed you. and now look at me , someone i now , knows that story and they are taunting me with the fact that they now it and that you told them . because of a crush a need to have a guy . you my confidant , my friend my sister , who shared a bond with me , have tossed me aside. is our bond that easy to toss away ? it makes me wounder how could someone so close hurt someone that cares for them ?

and yet its always the ones that are the closet that can hurt you , its the ones that you love and trust that make you blind , they can stand next to you with a bloody knife in hand and you will look at them with love and ask them if THEY are okay and if they need help . because you will stand by them. they look at you and maybe smile lean close and look you in the eyes or maybe whisper in your ear . and them they stick the knife in you . to make sure that they got you they usually twisted it as well . just for good measure and in the end they all say the same dam thing .
BUT IT WAS ALL IN FUN .
fun do you now the meaning of fun?

so by this definition making a mockery out of someone using violent activities that you find amusing but no one else does is fun. and the sad part is your right because in the English language that is what fun is defined as.

Definitions of fun on the Web:
activities that are enjoyable or amusing; "I do it for the fun of it"; "he is fun to have around"
verbal wit or mockery (often at another's expense but not to be taken seriously); "he became a figure of fun"; "he said it in sport"
violent and excited activity; "she asked for money and then the fun began"; "they began to fight like fun"

all i can say is WELL THATS JUST FUCKING PEACHY

mommy i dont want to wear the tin foil hat anymore

2009-06-11T11:33:00.000-07:00

yes i belong to one of those families , i know ha ha ha .

omg the aliens are coming to take over the world , the government listens to our thoughts . what a freak .

well guess what . its worse then that , worse i tell you . the government is not listening in they got bored years ago , the aliens think we are the idiots that's right people they stopped coming here years go because we are the trailer trash of this universe , we are the place they pray they have enough gas to get past.

soooo you ask if its not the aliens or the government , why the fuck are you wearing a tin hat .

WELL you poor misguided soul , i bet you have yet to meet my family.

my aunt and cuz 2 of dee read minds , and i have had it with the thought sharing , if you think having your mind read is the worse thing ever then have it read by your family and you will learn what it means to want the floor to swallow you up .

ya right you say , right so your family reads minds , and i bet your boyfriend is big foot and you ride the lockness monster to work everyday .

um no i dumped big foot , he had a bad case of athletes foot ( nasty stuff ) and i had to sell nessy as the economy sucks ass and fresh fish cost a fucking ton.

yesterday it got bad we where eating supper and my thoughts where random and odd as usual , anyone who knows me knows this. i was looking about and i remembered watching a how its made show cooking style about how some companies use intestines as the wrap to make sausages , and cuz 2 of dee , started picking at her sausages and when aunt dee asked what the mater was , i thought about the intestines and she cried out eww these things are made with intestines , and then she refused to eat them , she had been eating fine before i thought about the show , so i looked at her and said where did you hear that and thought oh fuck not you 2 and she looked at me and laughed .

so i was okay with aunt dee and the thoughts most the time , i mean if it has to be anyone at lest its her because we both are twisted and she may think some of it is all her own ..... maybe. but with 2 of them there is no hope.

NO HOPE I TELL YOU ..... NOT ONE FREAKING BIT.

also a side note 75 % of my thoughts should not be heard by anyone under 18. ................... hum that says something about me i guess.

so now i must go , and by some more tin foil , stocks running low , i will blog to you all later about life with the family .